This is my favorite time of the year. I love the spring – the days are getting longer and warmer, and there’s a certain vibe in the air. I can hear the birds again and if I listen really closely I can hear the faint sound of music at night. As if everyone has suddenly opened their doors and windows and is playing an optimistic tune. Summer is coming!
This blogpost is an ode to this time of year: to right NOW. Spring is on its way and as much as I love the summer, I love the anticipation of the season much more. I love the feeling when I’m walking to my car and I realize the air smells different. I can leave my winter coat and scarf at home. I can open the windows of my car when I drive to work. I need my sunglasses. The anticipation is killing me and it feels like something great is about to happen.
I never feel more inspired than I do right now. I love the first days of January because a new year has just started. But it doesn’t even compare to how I’m feeling right now. Funnily enough, I started my PhD project on March 1st so maybe there is a symbolic meaning to this date. Like the stars align for me in March, like the energy is just right in this month. Winter is over, spring is just around the corner and somewhere in the distance is the promise of summer. It doesn’t get much better than this.
“Spring is the time of plans and projects” ― Leo Tolstoy
When I’m feeling this inspired I start to analyze my life and think about my goals, dreams and future ambitions. I did a lot of soul-searching last year, I had a lot of family drama going on and I felt constantly consumed by other people’s problems. 2016 was not my best year and as the year was ending I made a promise to myself: 2017 would be my year. It would be the year I would finalize my PhD and it would be a year with minimal distractions. In 2017 I would focus on myself.
“If we had no winter, the spring would not be so pleasant: if we did not sometimes taste of adversity, prosperity would not be so welcome” ― Anne Bradstreet
You can’t see the light without first standing in darkness. You can’t be grateful for everything you have without feeling like it could be taken away from you. I have never been more grateful and appreciative for everything I have in life. I have built this life. Me. It’s mine and no one else can take credit for how far I’ve come.
I love you spring
I have no idea what the future holds, or even where I’ll be in 6 months, but (and this is also new for me) this doesn’t scare me. Five years ago I would be in total panic mode right now, but I’m not panicked. I am calm. I trust where my life is going and most importantly: I trust myself. I know I’ll figure it out. I always do. And in the meantime I’m going to stand still and enjoy the golden skies, the fluttering birds, the early, sunny mornings and long, promising evenings and the hope that’s brewing in the air. I love the spring – for me this is the season of excitement, promise, love, hope, peace and enjoyment. I hope you’re feeling just as inspired and hopeful as I am. The best is yet to come!