Today’s blogpost is a very personal one. In most of my blogposts I “preach” to everyone to find what you love, follow your dreams, and listen to yourself no matter what. Well, “what” has arrived and it’s time to take my own advice.
In June 2015 I started this blog and for the first time in a long time I felt excited about something. I had never used WordPress, never built a website, knew nothing about logos, SEO, photography, Photoshop or blogging in itself. I felt kind of stuck and was looking for a tiny note to blow in from my window one day on which my “passion” was written. Needless to say, this never happened. Like Elizabeth Gilbert put it so beautifully in Big Magic: I followed my curiosity instead. I don’t have a passion, but I do have lots of curiosities, so I decided to start there.
The start of this blog
So I started a blog. I bought a domain name, webhosting and a camera and I started writing. When I was a child I loved to write but I never wrote for fun anymore. I have about 4 drafts of “books” on my computer, from when I was younger, but I am someone who loses interest in a topic quite quickly. So blogging is the perfect way for me to write and be creative: blog posts are relatively short and you can write about whatever interests you at the time.
From the start I loved it. I loved being creative; writing short blog posts, taking and/or finding photos that fit with the topic, attending blogging events, meeting other bloggers… I loved every minute of it. And I was learning so much! I still am – that’s part of why it’s still fun. But of course, it hasn’t all been fun. Yes, I’m doing what I love (finally) and I put (almost) all my time and money into it without a second thought. But there’s noise – lots of noise.
If it was easy, we’d all be doing it
First off, there are about a million other bloggers out there. I read somewhere that thousands of new blogs pop up every day. That’s a pretty discouraging figure. Second, apparently blogs are out. People don’t have the time to read, they have an attention span that keeps getting shorter (isn’t this a serious problem?!) and they don’t visit blogs that often anymore. Instead, they like to see photos, watch videos, with very little or no text. By the way, Facebook likes this too. Videos rank higher than text.
“Out of nothing and no way a way will be made” – Michael Bernard Beckwith
Here’s why none of this should matter: I love blogging. I love writing. I am not a vlogger. It would be the ‘smart’ thing to start a Youtube channel right now and start vlogging my ass off. That’s where the money is. But to me that seems so forced. I love the rush I feel when I come up with new ideas for blog posts, when I feel I am writing a good post, and when I finally hit ‘publish’. I just don’t see myself walking around talking to my camera. It’s just not me.
Everything I’ve read, written and believe in comes down to this: either I keep believing in myself and move forward, or I give in to the ‘noise’ telling me to start vlogging, change my ‘strategy’ or quit altogether. Like Michael Jackson said: This is it. I am not quitting. I love this blog, I am going to keep going, writing, whether it’s the ‘smart’ thing to do or not.
“Now is the time for guts and guile” – Elizabeth Taylor
One small change: I’ve decided to make my social media accounts more personal. I don’t see myself as a ‘company’. I am Emmelyn and I am a blogger for Healthy not Skinny. So if you follow me on Twitter, Instagram or Pinterest you’ll see I am now called ‘EmmelynC’ and not ‘Healthynotskinny’. Time to get personal people!
To sum it all up: I have a goal (this blog) and I am going to keep posting written blog posts five times a week (Monday – Friday). No matter what anyone says. Thanks so much for taking the time to read this – I love you and your attention span :-).